Its already October this month. Time flies so fast don't they?
For this whole twenty minutes,i've been thinking alot.
about family,friends and love.
I went through quite a lot. Not that much actually but still,
it was a hell of a ride.

Family.
There's so much to say. too much actually.
Family is kinda a personal thing for me.
I guess i should just shrug it off.

Friends.
People changed. Mistakes were made too often.
girlfriends,we were always having ups and downs.
y.w.y.i was over due to some reasons.
we did our own things. secrets were revealed and
it was never the same anymore.
we went separate ways.
the three of us tried to meet as many times as we could.
watching movies. having fun. bitchings.
while she was also seem to be happy with her gfs.
im not trying to bring back the problem but
somehow i do miss the moments of y.w.y.i .
i guess i got to admit that.

descartes.
mistakes were made over and over again.
two kinds of groups. two different stories.
and i chose not to be involve but in the end,i had to choose.
it was very complicated.
they kept teasing. she kept holding on.
but after awhile, things change. they stopped teasing her
and instead they talked with each other.
its because we were classmate that we can still communicate with each other.
im just glad that things are back to normal.

love.
wow. i don't think its called love but relationship.
i went through quite ups and downs.
i guess i was stupid at that time to keep thinking that he would realise how much i love him.
i was there all the time,never left him alone.
but still, his ex-gf is what he thinks of.
but things happen again. she cheats. he's hurts. i'm there for him.
we patch up again. (what was i thinking?)
again,sweet words. "completing his puzzle"
bleaaah, rubbish.
and after that, i saw him hugging his ex-gf.
caught red-handed.
i can't believe i let him take the advantage of it.
i was being a good girl and he thinks that he can fool me so easily.
he thinks that he could always hope that i was there for him
each time his ex-gf leaves him.
but he was wrong.
i was over him. it just ended there.
that was the last chance i ever gave him.
and i still remember after that he said,
"i thought you will always come back to me."
in fact boy, i won't. not ever.
just lead a happy life. i'm leading a good and happy life right now without you.

i'm just letting out whats on my mind.
i just wanne be a better person.
not that i really wanne bring out old memories/problems
but just a reflect on myself abt what happen.
a reflect of myself towards the situation.
hopefully,i won't make the same mistake anymore.